Heart

Jack is having trouble keeping the fluid out of his lungs. They are doing a echo on him to see if his heart could be damaged.

He had a difficult night last night. Jack's waking up has it's good and bad. The good is that he's with us. He can look at you, and nod and tell you he loves you. When your loved one has been stolen from you (which is how it feels) and he has been gone for a month, it is golden to know he is still in there. However, I must note, that Jack isn't awake like you or I. He has moments when I can really see his eyes clear and focused. But, for the most part, it's like he is in a completely different place inside of his own head. Like, he's awake...but dreaming. I wonder if it feels a bit like we do when we are half asleep. The bad side of his awakeness, is that in his moments of lucidity, he knows he is on a vent and he knows he is very sick (though we don't talk to him about how seriously) and you can see the sadness of his situation seeping into his eyes. And it is heart breaking...

David and I are heading up to see mom now. I will take my computer and update later.

Oh! And I will write about what his symptoms were too...what led up to all of this...